“奥古斯都”的故事——赛斯解析多重人格障碍的经典案例（中）

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 “奥古斯都”的故事（上）

奥古斯都第二的本性并不邪恶，然而，在灵魂学的圈子里，他无疑会被诠释为一个邪灵或邪恶的向导。

他的本质是具有保护作用的。某些基本观念与信念被人格化为他的存在，变成了他这个存在，其形成是为了保护奥古斯都第一不受童年时被灌输的破坏性观念的影响，是为了去对抗他认为自己无力、无用的信念。那么，那些基本信念被加在了原有的观念上，但这仍是在早年发生的；因此，从这个小孩对强大生命的概念里，奥古斯都第二诞生了。

那么，自觉软弱的感觉愈强，补偿性的力量感也就愈强——但是，同样，在有意识的层面并没有和解的企图。

奥古斯都的母亲只注意到她的儿子好像非常善变。奥古斯都第二并没有表现出是很明显的“另一个人格”，直到奥古斯都结婚以后，当作为父亲的身份和谋生的要求都强加在他身上，而他无法应付时。

他认为自己毫无价值，这种信念使他无法运用他的能力，甚至根本无法坚持去寻求一条有效的行动路径。就在那个时候，奥古斯都第二才开始彰显他自己——而且彰显给奥古斯都的妻子看。奥古斯都第二以他自己的方式向她证明，她嫁给了一个非同寻常、强而有力的男人，一个阳刚与力量的典范；但要做到这一点，奥古斯都第一也必须对她显出好像是奥古斯都第二的样子。这种情况持续了一段时间，奥古斯都第一先是头痛欲裂，然后这个来自外太空的外星人就登场了：一个不是奥古斯都第一的发号施令的男性。

但在这里，这种“欺骗”带来了某些难题。不单单是奥古斯都第二有很多性对象，而且相形之下，奥古斯都第一确实显得非常苍白。奥古斯都第二原本是为了帮助奥古斯都第一的。的确，在奥古斯都第二暂时离开的时段，这种异域风情也蔓延开来，给奥古斯都第一增添了几分魅力，但二者的对比太明显，太露骨了。奥古斯都第一——仍然是主要人格——变得更加害怕了。他知道奥古斯都第二正在渐渐活得偏离初衷，让他蒙羞，因而必须离去。

事实上，一旦奥古斯都第二明显地“接管”了奥古斯都第一的身体时，对全家人而言这一切都是明摆着的。他妻子开始对他的言行作笔记。当这些事件后来被复述给奥古斯都第一时，其中的谎言与欺骗是显而易见的。那个“人格”幼稚的本质也显而易见；然而，奥古斯都第二自称是无所不知的，来自一个在各方面都远远超过地球的星系。而他在这里做着一些永远不会发生的预言，像个老练的演员一样吹牛撒谎。

某些信念带有的能量产生了这个“交替的自我形象”，那些信念于是得以出现在光天化日之下，在物质实相里表现出它们自然的结果。奥古斯都第一——现在已经是成人了——被迫在某种程度上察觉到这些信念的本质，但当他在这儿拜访鲁柏时，他仍不肯检视它们。

现在奥古斯都第二已经有两个半月没有出现了。奥古斯都处于进退两难的境地，因为他仍完整地抱持着他自己是无能为力的信念，而那个“他是万能的”对立信念，现在并没有通过奥古斯都第二表达出来。但它们必然会被表达；因此在这次会面时，奥古斯都第一——我们现在简称他为奥古斯都——有一会儿表现出了巨大的敌意，瞪着鲁柏，告诉鲁柏他可以消灭任何伤害他的人。而在下一刻，出于对妻儿的爱，那个恳求帮助的他又浮现出来了。奥古斯都在一句话里陈述了一件事，十分钟后，他又说一句，以表明第一个事实不是真的。

在这里，奥古斯都第一与第二之间的两极性已经溶解，因此这两个对立的信念系统并驾齐驱地运作着。但奥古斯都却仍不肯检视自己的言辞、思想，也不愿看见对别人而言如此明显的矛盾。

信念的本质与重要性如此生动地显现出来，以致于鲁柏受到了惊吓，而发现自己被迫采取一些复杂的心理对策。那两个“人格”不再是分开的，却是合了起来。

奥古斯都说：“我的朋友让一个反对我的邻居得肺炎死掉了。他关照我。”另一个邻居得了溃疡，奥古斯都告诉鲁柏，当他摸了这位邻居之后，溃疡似乎就好了。于是他说：“我想知道这种伟大的能力有多少是属于我的。”然后他把眼光移开了一下，说：“也许我根本不需要我朋友的保护。”且说这绝对是好事，因为奥古斯都开始感觉自己也许不是无力的。然而，他自己的人格却必须去处理一个不再人格化的奥古斯都第二那些显然令人讨厌的特质。

留给他的是这样的问题：“如果我如此强大，那我怎么会又如此软弱，甚至不能养家糊口呢？如果我这么伟大，为什么我不能有效地利用我的能量？”

因为奥古斯都的身体再度被关于他自己的非常矛盾的信念左右了。以前，当他是奥古斯都第二时，他身体强壮，而当他是奥古斯都第一时，身体虚弱。现在，作为奥古斯都，他时而强壮时而虚弱，给身体的压力是很明显的。作为奥古斯都第二，他能夜以继日地工作，完成常人很难完成的体力劳动，因为他是在对力量的坚定意念下运作的，那意念坚不可分。

让奥古斯都第二消失对他来说是需要勇气的。不过，因为信念的清晰分隔已不复存在，奥古斯都第二的特性现在已经“渗透”到他自己身上，所以对他妻子而言，他甚至更难相处了。比如说，他在某些地方会撒谎，而以前只有奥古斯都第二才会在那里撒谎。

那么，此处就有了这样一个例子：截然相反的信念在不同时间主宰了有意识的头脑，而每一组信念都以自己的方式来操作这个身体。从生理上说，不管哪一组观念在作主，身体都具有相同的体力；但实际上，奥古斯都第一无法完成奥古斯都第二的壮举。

有一次，奥古斯都第二在愤怒中从二楼窗户跳了下去而没有受伤——这是一次颇不寻常的壮举。然而，奥古斯都累坏了，几乎难以熬过正常的一天。在这种情况下，一个人透过信念，真的把他的力量和能量放在一边，而只有当他彻底转换信念时，才能用到它们。

只是因为奥古斯都第二孩子气的个性最后表现得如此明显，以至于奥古斯都第二不得不被摒弃。奥古斯都的妻子起了作用，因为很显然，她对这位“朋友”的看法与她丈夫不同。她的信念后来成为了新的基础，这是一个转折点，让奥古斯都多少能以一种超然的态度去看待这个替换的自我形象。

未完待续

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There is nothing evil in the nature of Augustus Two. In spiritualistic circles however he would most certainly be interpreted as an evil spirit or guide.

His nature is protective. The basic ideas and beliefs that have been personified into his being, that became his being, were formed to protect Augustus One from the destructive ideas given to him in his childhood, to combat the beliefs in powerlessness and futility. To that degree they were added onto the original ideas, but still at an early age; so it was from the child’s concept of a powerful being that Augustus Two sprang.

The greater the feelings of weakness then the greater the compensating feelings of power and strength — but, again, with no attempt at conscious reconciliation.

Augustus’s mother noted only that her son seemed highly changeable. Augustus Two did not present himself as obviously “another personality” until after Augustus’s marriage, when the demands of fatherhood and making a living were placed upon him. He could not cope.

His beliefs in his unworthiness prevented him from using his abilities, or even pursuing a course of effective action, with any persistence. It was then that Augustus Two began to assert himself — and to Augustus’s wife. In his own way Augustus Two would prove to her that she was married to quite an unusual, powerful man, a paragon of virility and strength; but to do so Augustus One must appear as Augustus Two to her. This continued for some time. Augustus One would first develop a splitting headache, and then this alien from outer space would arrive: the commanding male that Augustus One was not.

Here, however, the “deception” brought about certain difficulties. Not only was Augustus Two more sexually promiscuous, but by contrast Augustus One seemed very pallid indeed. Augustus Two was originally intended to help Augustus One. It’s true that the exotic conditions spilled over, casting some glamour on Augustus One when Augustus Two left for a time, but the contrast was too blatant, too out in the open. Augustus One, still the primary personality, became even more frightened. He knew that gradually Augustus Two was outliving his purpose, showing him up, and had to go.

In fact, once Augustus Two obviously “took over” the body of Augustus One, it was all out in the open in the family. The wife began to take notes of what was done and said. When these events were repeated to Augustus One later, the lying and cheating was evident. So was the infantile nature of the “personality”; yet Augustus Two purported to be all-wise, from a galaxy far surpassing Earth in every category of endeavor. And here he was making predictions that never happened, and boasting and lying like a trouper.

The beliefs whose energy generated this “alternate self image” then appeared in the daylight, acting out their natural results in physical reality. Augustus One, now in manhood, was forced to perceive the nature of these beliefs to some extent, yet when he was here visiting Ruburt he still would not examine them.

Augustus Two has not taken over now for two and one-half months. Augustus is in a dilemma, for he still holds intact the beliefs in his own powerlessness, and the contradictory beliefs of omnipotence are not now being expressed through Augustus Two. Yet expressed they will be; and so in the interview Augustus One — who we will now simply call Augustus — at one moment came through with his gigantic belligerence, staring at Ruburt and telling him that he could annihilate anyone who hurt him. In the next moment the great plea for help would surface, the love of his wife and child. In one sentence Augustus would make a statement, and ten minutes later make it clear with another remark that the first fact had not been true.

Here the polarity between Augustus One and Two had dissolved, so that the two opposing systems of belief operated alongside each other. Still Augustus would not examine his own words, his own thoughts, or see the contradictions so obvious to others.

The nature and importance of belief appeared so eloquently that Ruburt was astounded, and found himself forced into some complicated psychological footwork. The two “personalities” were no longer separate, but merging.

Augustus said, “My friend killed a neighbor of mine who was against me by giving him pneumonia. He looks out for me.” Another neighbor has ulcers, and Augustus told Ruburt that after he touched this neighbor the ulcers seemed to have been healed. So he said, “I would like to know how much of this great ability belongs to me.” And looking briefly away: “Perhaps I do not need my friend to protect me after all.” Now this was definitely to the good, in that Augustus was beginning to feel that perhaps he was not powerless. His own personality, however, is left to handle the definitely unsavory characteristics of an Augustus Two who is no longer personified.

He is left with the questions: “If I am so powerful, how is it that I am so weak, and cannot even support my family? If I am so great, why cannot I effectively use my energy?”

For the body of Augustus is once again under the sway of beliefs about himself that are highly contradictory. Before, he was physically powerful when he was Augustus Two, and weak when he was Augustus One. Now as Augustus he is alternately strong and weak, and the body stresses are apparent. As Augustus Two he could stay up night and day and perform physical tasks quite difficult for the normal human being to do, for he operated under the indivisible idea of power and strength.

It has taken some courage for him to let Augustus Two vanish. Because the neat division of beliefs no longer exists, however, he will seem even more difficult to his wife since the characteristics of Augustus Two now “bleed into” his own. He will lie for example where before only Augustus Two lied.

Here then is a case where directly opposing beliefs dominated the conscious mind at various times, each operating the body in its own manner. Physically the body has the same capacity for strength regardless of which group of ideas were dominant; but practically speaking, Augustus One was incapable of performing the feats of Augustus Two.

Augustus Two once leaped from a second-story window to the ground in anger, and without injury — a highly unusual feat. Augustus, however, is so exhausted that he can barely get through a normal day. You had a situation in which an individual, through beliefs, put his power and energy literally beside himself. He could use it only when he switched beliefs completely.

It was only because the childlike characteristics of Augustus Two finally appeared so blatantly that Augustus Two had to be dispensed with. Augustus’s wife made the difference, for it was obvious that she did not have the same opinion of this “friend” that her husband had. Her beliefs then became the new foundation, the one point of change that allowed Augustus to view this alternate self-image with any kind of detachment at all.